reflection time

i'm starting to think that i'm becoming more n more of a turn off, irritating n pissing ppl of, i need to change. I need to get a proper clique of friends and get a best firend, a true best friend(speaking of cliques, I think the main girl clique in class dislikes me). I need to start relying on myself, not needing the help of others, i gotta be independent, i need to start bucking up, i miss my good grades, i miss getting top 10 in class, i miss praises from teachers that make my classmates sick cause i'm quite jealous of my classmates. Yes, i'm jealous. I admit. WAKE UP!!!!